Old Astronauts by Tim Nolan
When they get together now—
they nod to one another—
don’t talk about the pitch
black of airless space—
don’t want to remember
the dust of the moon
in the treads of their boots—
they fall in bathrooms—
just like everyone else—
but from a greater height—
and before their heads
hit the tiled floor—
they float for awhile—
weightless seeming
to dance
at the end of a cord—
one of them found
Noah’s Ark—or is just
about to—mostly they
remain dead silent—
whatever they saw and felt—
lost for generations—it’s that
they were led to believe
they really could escape—
the pull of the molten core
With Neil Armstrong’s death last week, this poem by Tim
Nolan seems appropriate, doesn’t it?
I am especially enamored of the line breaks in this one, along with the
use of the dash which is so often used (think of Dickinson) as a mark of
punctuation that refuses closure.
In the second stanza, the line break “the pitch/black of
airless space” nicely disorients the reader. Pitch is a great word, full of
possible meanings, and it looks like a noun there at the end of the line. But
when we move to the next line, we see it was meant as an adjective for “black”
and somehow Nolan has created in us a sense a bit like zero gravity.
This is a sad poem, about—as many of the poems
in this book are—how we understand the lives of those we love who are dying,
have died. What did their lives mean? The astronauts in the poem cannot articulate the exceptional
experiences of their lives. But
they are not just like the rest of us, for even as they “fall in bathrooms”
they fall “from a greater height.” And in that falling is the floating their
bodies once knew in space. In this way, Nolan suggests that the experiences of
these old astronauts are articulated by their bodies if not their words, even
as their lives end. In such a notion is consolation.
The last lines mourn the fact of gravity, of our boundedness
to this planet and a span of time. The astronauts “were led to believe/they
really could escape--/the pull of the molten core.” And notice again that dash. There is no escape, the poem
tells us, but the speaker resists that knowledge, pushes forward again and
again to keep the line/life going.
Punctuation can’t stop death. But it can put up a great fight. In this
poem, and in many others in this wonderful collection, Nolan takes on hard subjects
and wrestles with them, searching for solace and meaning as time continues to
pass.
Good stuff.
Look for the book, And Then,
coming soon from New Issues Press.